My First Time Happened Because I Was Tricked On Grindr

I’ve been in the closet my whole life. The people around me are very close minded so coming out has never felt like an option. And leading up to my first time, I had been a relatively good “straight” boy. From time to time I’d watch the occasional gay porn video but otherwise, I lived as if straight. Even had gfs several times. Well when I turned 18, by dumb luck I heard about Grindr on a YouTube video. The YouTuber referenced Grindr as a way of calling another person gay. Then it hit me, this urge to check it out for myself. It had never occurred to me that there could be dating websites specifically for gay men. At most I assumed gay people just used filters on tinder. Well I downloaded the app on my phone. I think it’s relevant to the story to mention, I’m a caveman when it comes to tech. Always have been, always will be. And at this time, I had just gotten my first ever iPhone. Before that I was using very outdated androids. So I wasn’t very familiar with how to use my phone or even the app for that matter. Well as I started to set up my profile and tried learning the app, I began getting messages right away. I small talked with a couple of guys but most of them took forever to respond or just didn’t. Then one guy introduced himself with a cock pic. It was big, veiny and honestly intimidating. I felt obliged to respond with a nude picture of myself as well. I wanted to show I was looking to be more of submissive one so I took a couple pictures of my ass and body in feminine positions and sent them to him. This is where he tricked me. He asked where I lived and I said the city’s name I was in. He said he was there too and asked “whereabouts in….” And I tried lying saying I just moved a couple weeks ago and I don’t know the area well enough to describe it. He must’ve known we were close to each other because I had noticed it said he was just about a mile away, but I didn’t realize I was also giving away my distance. He knew I was still learning the app as I stupidly put it in my bio. So he told me “you can send an approximate location thru the app so we can see how far we are from each other” then proceed to tell me the steps to do so. But in reality, he was telling me the steps to send him the pin drop to my exact location. I know that was really stupid of me. But in my defense, I was a stupid naive teen, my mind was so horny and excited about the app I wasn’t thinking clearly. My body was shaking as I would text him back from how nervous but excited I was. Plus my lack of tech savvyness. Please give me a break 😩 Well I sent the location and he didn’t respond for about 6 minutes. He had been responding almost instantly the whole time so this made me feel weird. I clicked on our chat, specifically the location that I sent him and that’s when I realized exactly how precise the pin drop really was. While in our chat, I also noticed that his distance had gone from a mile to 2,660 ft. My heart dropped. He was coming right toward me. We hadn’t even discussed what we wanted to do or anything. Other than the cock pic that showed a slight portion of his abs, I had no clue how he looked or who he was. I’m peeking thru my blinds and my heart sinks lower and lower with every car that passes by. Out of fear that if I didn’t let him in, he’d start outing me to my whole neighborhood. I committed. I decided when he arrived I was gonna walk out and let him right into my room to make it appear as if we’re just friends. My only hope was that it wasn’t some really old man or something. The closer he is to my age the more believable it would be that he’s just a friend coming over. Finally a black Nissan Altima arrives and parks literally in front of my driveway, half blocking it too. I ran right out and when he saw me he started walking towards me. All I said was “hey 👋🏼” and he walked up my driveway, and followed me inside. He was a lot more handsome than I expected him to be but he was definitely a lot older than me. I was 18, he had to have been around 40. In shape and appeared showered and smelled good so at least he was hot. He groped my ass the whole walk to my room. When I closed the door behind us, he wasted no time. As I turned to face him, he was already reaching for my ass and sucking on my neck. Now I’ve sucked on girls necks to this point, but never have I had it done to me by a man. Boy did it feel amazing. We made out for what felt like an hour. My nervousness quickly turned into hornyness once I realized he wasn’t here to hurt me or anything. We were now sucking on each other’s tongues, both his hands are firmly grasping my ass. I’m not super tall nor super short, but compared to him and how he was grabbing me like a toy, I felt like a dainty 5’1 girl, and I loved it. He undressed me and undressed himself quickly and we moved things to the bed. The way he would caress my thighs as he laid on top of me felt amazing. Then he stood up and led me to my knees by my throat. I have never even touched another man’s cock up until this point. And there it was, a nice big cock, hard as a rock just centimeters from my mouth. I paused for a minute, I almost felt high from being so close to this cock. If this cock was breathing, I could feel it breathing on me like an angry bull. He noticed my hesitation and took that moment of brace away from me. He wrapped his monstrous hands around my head and chin and started fucking my mouth with his cock. I gagged a ton (but no yack!) since it was my first cock ever, a huge one mind you. Eventually I found some rhythm and started sucking his cock a lot better, I could tell by his moans and the fact that he stopped using his hands to guide me. I blew him for about 10 minutes before he sat me up on my bed and started blowing me. This was a crazy feeling too. A man twice my age and size, sucking on my cock. My dick was much much smaller and skinnier compared to his, but he was sucking it like it tasted like his favorite candy. I told him I was gonna cum and try to escape his mouth but he wrapped his hands around my waist/thighs and held me down so that I nutted in his mouth. He swallowed my load and said “now you owe me one” and then took me back to my knees and continued fucking my face. After a couple more minutes, without warning he pressed down on my head and came down my throat. A little bit came out of my nose and the rest down the hatch. I gagged uncontrollably when he released me. He spanked me on my butt as I laid on my bed defeated. He got dressed and said “how was your first time” out of breath and face fucked, I couldn’t manufacture a response and he gave me no time to either. After he said that, he chuckled and made his way out the door. When I finally got my wits back, I washed him off my face, showered then checked my phone only to find out that he blocked me. I look at this first time as a positive learning experience. Because after about 2 weeks of a “that was horrible and a huge mistake and I didn’t even like it and I am straight and need to be so I’ll just forget this ever happened and never do it again” stage, I wound up back on Grindr and doing it again and again. Each time more carefully and with more knowledge and experience. Now I’m a pro at discreet hookups.